[b1ackangeL]

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[VOlcan0.o?]

They don't filter the word "****"?

[VOlcan0.o?]

Huh, apparently not.

[VOlcan0.o?]

Oh well, It's 5 am and I need to be doing my summer reading (This blows), but I like to live vicariously through these posters because I'm too lazy to post... ok not really. I really live vicariously through.... myself. I'm kind of weird like that. I mean, I'm not the type of guy that you think "Oh, he's a Nerdface who thinks he's all that at playing Kurt Cobain songs on Guitar Hero: Epic Pwn4ge edition, when in reality he's just a nerd." I mean, I have a girlfriend who is hot in my eyes. She's australian though. Lemme tell you, Australians are very blunt about everything. If you have a bad idea, she's not afraid to tell you... Oh no Sir. One could go as far as to say she's a *****. But that's the type of crowd I hang out with. The type of crowd where if they knew that I played a game like this, they'd eat my genitalia and feed it to my pet Yak. Well not that drastic, but they would ridicule me for a while. I guess I have to deal with that sort of thing. Social life sucks, right? If you have the slightest imperfection, it's like a social suicide. Take a couple months ago for example... I broke out a (****...Had to grab your attention, I saw you were dozing off) bit, and those 2-3 weeks were like hell for me. Losing all my confidence, I didn't take Lital (My Girlfriend) out on any dates for fear of her seeing my pubescent body take over in the form of acne. Now that's long since past, but that's the social life we live in. If you want to be a prep, you have to act like it 24/7 or else you're doneskii (Thanks stitchie for teaching me that word). Now if I put forth this much effort into my summer reading as I just did with this WALL OF TEXT then I could be like 1/100 of the way done. Summer reading's a biotch. I have to read "The Adventures of Huckleberry Finn," "The Absolutely True Story of a Part-Time Indian," and "The Jungle." Leave it to the liberal teachers to give us a book about the Pro's of socialism (The Jungle). I read the first 100 pages of that book and man, lemme tell you... BOOOREFEST. God, He spends the first 50 pages talking about some wedding that has absolutely nothing to do with socialism. He's a babbling fool... just like good ol' Huck Finn. Kid is 13 years old, and has seen more killing than a "24" Marathon. If you're still reading this post by now, then (In the words of Dr. Cox) "You re-he-he-he-heeealy" need to get a life. Not really. I shouldn't be criticizing the people who are reading all of this, it takes a whole heavenuva lot of determination. I hate Obama... I mean, what has he done thus far to improve our country? He wants to take over 1/7 of our economy and he can't even run "Cash for Clunkers" correctly. what on earth will this country become under the "Messiah's" ruling? Sorry Mr. O, You can keep the change. Well that was my political rant for the day... I wonder how long i can keep going. Oh yea, so I ordered a T-shirt from shirt.woot.com and I tell ya, that's probably the best 10 bucks I've ever spent. It's a cartoonish devil who has a second place ribbon on and he's crying with the fiddle in his hands. It coincides with "The Devil Went Down to Georgia," by The Charlie Daniels Band. It's a great song. But I wont stick to that as a topic. It's just a great song. I keep getting all these offers in my e-mailbox for porn sites... now I'm not one to look up porn because, A, I have a girlfriend, and B, I like to work for my pictures. I want to be able to say "I swooned that girl into taking off her clothes." That's the kind of man I am. I've also never tried pot, or alcohol. I've been offered the stuff more times than Scicon can say LMAO BOOM in his sleep, but never once have I stooped that low. I like to say I have sometimes just to be cool... but kewl kids have never done that stuff. I guess I'm a prep that doesn't want to be a prep. I don't like to conform to all of their traditional preppy stuff with the alcohol, drugs and such. I have cheated on my Girlfriend once or twice, and that I will admit over here because no one will ever know. Well, It's 5:13 am. I'm gonna pull an all-nighter so I can finish my Summer Reading. You're probably asking yourself why I'm trying to finish it tonight with school being a week away and that's a good question. See, Mum promised me if I finished it by wednesday, she'd go out and either get me the new Iphone or a Laptop of my choice. Which one should I get? I'll let you guys sleep on that one.

[VOlcan0.o?]

I'll give someone a dollar if they read that.

[VOlcan0.o?]

USD... Not that Canadian ****.

[b1ackangeL]

August 3, 2009:
I took off today, Monday, and tomorrow to practice my routine and make sure it is well polished. I need to work out every detail, there is only one shot. Also I need to be completely immersed into something before I can be successful. I haven't had a drink since Friday at about 2:30. Total effort needed. Tomorrow is the big day.

Unfortunately I talked to my neighbor today, who is very positive and upbeat. I need to remain focused and absorbed COMPLETELY. Last time I tried this, in January, I chickened out. Lets see how this new approach works.

Maybe soon, I will see God and Jesus. At least that is what I was told. Eternal life does NOT depend on works. If it did, we will all be in hell. Christ paid for EVERY sin, so how can I or you be judged BY GOD for a sin when the penalty was ALREADY paid. People judge but that does not matter. I was reading the Bible and The Integrity of God beginning yesterday, because soon I will see them.

I will try not to add anymore entries because this computer clicking distracts me.

Also, any of the "Practice Papers" left on my coffee table I used or the notes in my gym bag can be published freely. I will not be embarased, because, well, I will be dead. Some people like to study that stuff. Maybe all this will shed insight on why some people just cannot make things happen in their life, which can potentially benefit others.

[VOlcan0.o?]

Originally Posted by b1ackangeL

August 3, 2009:
I took off today, Monday, and tomorrow to practice my routine and make sure it is well polished. I need to work out every detail, there is only one shot. Also I need to be completely immersed into something before I can be successful. I haven't had a drink since Friday at about 2:30. Total effort needed. Tomorrow is the big day.

Unfortunately I talked to my neighbor today, who is very positive and upbeat. I need to remain focused and absorbed COMPLETELY. Last time I tried this, in January, I chickened out. Lets see how this new approach works.

Maybe soon, I will see God and Jesus. At least that is what I was told. Eternal life does NOT depend on works. If it did, we will all be in hell. Christ paid for EVERY sin, so how can I or you be judged BY GOD for a sin when the penalty was ALREADY paid. People judge but that does not matter. I was reading the Bible and The Integrity of God beginning yesterday, because soon I will see them.

I will try not to add anymore entries because this computer clicking distracts me.

Also, any of the "Practice Papers" left on my coffee table I used or the notes in my gym bag can be published freely. I will not be embarased, because, well, I will be dead. Some people like to study that stuff. Maybe all this will shed insight on why some people just cannot make things happen in their life, which can potentially benefit others.

Jan. 6, 2009:
I can do this. ***8230; It is 6:40pm, about hour and a half to go. God have mercy. I wish life could be better for all and the crazy world can somehow run smoother. I wish I had answers. Bye.
It is 8:45PM: I chickened out! ****! I brought the loaded guns, everything. Hell!

[*Joker*]

o.O lmao... Scicon say BOOM LMAO in his sleep, made me laugh XD

[b1ackangeL]

Originally Posted by VOlcan0.o?

Jan. 6, 2009:
I can do this. ***8230; It is 6:40pm, about hour and a half to go. God have mercy. I wish life could be better for all and the crazy world can somehow run smoother. I wish I had answers. Bye.
It is 8:45PM: I chickened out! ****! I brought the loaded guns, everything. Hell!

January 5, 2009:
Was at the gym to lift. Very crowded. Tomorrow should be good. There is a woman there that gives me a certain look every time I am there. I decided to walk over and make a comment about the crowds but she left when I finished the exercise. Better that I do not get sidetracked from tomorrow's plan anyways. Life is just playing games. One or two dates with her, then the end. No matter how many changes I try to make, things stay the same. Every evening I am alone, and then go to bed alone. Young women were brutal when I was younger, now they aren't as much, probably because they just see me just as another old man.
I see twenty something couples everywhere. I see a twenty something guy with a nice twentyish young women. I think those years slipped right by for me. Why should I continue another 20+ years alone? I will just work, come home, eat, maybe do something, then go to bed (alone) for the next day of the same thing. This is the Auschwitz Syndrome, to be in serious pain so long one thinks it is normal. I cannot wait for tomorrow!

[VOlcan0.o?]

Originally Posted by b1ackangeL

January 5, 2009:
Was at the gym to lift. Very crowded. Tomorrow should be good. There is a woman there that gives me a certain look every time I am there. I decided to walk over and make a comment about the crowds but she left when I finished the exercise. Better that I do not get sidetracked from tomorrow's plan anyways. Life is just playing games. One or two dates with her, then the end. No matter how many changes I try to make, things stay the same. Every evening I am alone, and then go to bed alone. Young women were brutal when I was younger, now they aren't as much, probably because they just see me just as another old man.
I see twenty something couples everywhere. I see a twenty something guy with a nice twentyish young women. I think those years slipped right by for me. Why should I continue another 20+ years alone? I will just work, come home, eat, maybe do something, then go to bed (alone) for the next day of the same thing. This is the Auschwitz Syndrome, to be in serious pain so long one thinks it is normal. I cannot wait for tomorrow!

January 4th, 2009
Two days until the big day. I've had to run it over step-by-step in my living room until the Colbert Report came on. I become so consumed in the nature of the program that I had forgotten about my practice. Anyway, I have the guns stashed in my duffle bag, I walk in casually, and when it seems about the right time, I scream at the top of my lungs either; "BOOM LMAO HAHAHAH," or I frantically repeat "ALLAH AKBAR IS THE ONLY MESSENGER," then as I open fire, I watch those bodies once full of life, fall to the floor as lead is flying around the room. Their lifeless bodies, still, quiet, while all Hell is breaking loose around them. This is going to be exciting! BOOM

[b1ackangeL]

Originally Posted by VOlcan0.o?

January 4th, 2009
Two days until the big day. I've had to run it over step-by-step in my living room until the Colbert Report came on. I become so consumed in the nature of the program that I had forgotten about my practice. Anyway, I have the guns stashed in my duffle bag, I walk in casually, and when it seems about the right time, I scream at the top of my lungs either; "BOOM LMAO HAHAHAH," or I frantically repeat "ALLAH AKBAR IS THE ONLY MESSENGER," then as I open fire, I watch those bodies once full of life, fall to the floor as lead is flying around the room. Their lifeless bodies, still, quiet, while all Hell is breaking loose around them. This is going to be exciting! BOOM

August 5th, 2009:
Here I am. It's cold. I see bright lights. My body feels numb. I lie naked under a white sheet ontop of a metal table. Why is my head in pain? It felt like I was shot in the head. Why are is there a person examining my body. This is the first time I've been touched by a person in 19 years. I slightly turn my head to the right and see 4 other dead women next to me. Who are they?

[VOlcan0.o?]

Originally Posted by b1ackangeL

August 5th, 2009:
Here I am. It's cold. I see bright lights. My body feels numb. I lie naked under a white sheet ontop of a metal table. Why is my head in pain? It felt like I was shot in the head. Why are is there a person examining my body. This is the first time I've been touched by a person in 19 years. I slightly turn my head to the right and see 4 other dead women next to me. Who are they?

August 4th, 2008
6:34 AM... One year, one year till the big day. Oh god, I can see it now Allah, This world needs to be corrected. You need it to run smoothly. I am doing your job. This is why I was born. You told me this was your plan for me and now I shall fulfill it. One year. Three-hundred and Sixty Five days. Eight-thousand seven-hundred and sixty hours. Five-hundred Twenty-five thousand Six-hundred minutes. Anyway you slice it, it will get done. I will get it done. I, alone.

[b1ackangeL]

Originally Posted by VOlcan0.o?

August 4th, 2008
6:34 AM... One year, one year till the big day. Oh god, I can see it now Allah, This world needs to be corrected. You need it to run smoothly. I am doing your job. This is why I was born. You told me this was your plan for me and now I shall fulfill it. One year. Three-hundred and Sixty Five days. Eight-thousand seven-hundred and sixty hours. Five-hundred Twenty-five thousand Six-hundred minutes. Anyway you slice it, it will get done. I will get it done. I, alone.

September 30th, 1960
Today was the day I came out of my mother's womb. I feel wet and slimy. I saw the doctors nearly sliced my ***** off. In about 40 years I will take my life and several others. BOOM BOOM BOOM will all I hear before I die. I will be lonely throughout my life. F my Life.

[_Mandy_]

Originally Posted by VOlcan0.o?

I'll give someone a dollar if they read that.

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